KaiserCartel
Miniature Tigers:
Inspired Bicycles with Danny Macaskill (I've watched this a dozen times, and I'm not sure if it's the song or the tricks or the way the song and tricks are so beautiful together, but it gives me nerdy goosebumps):
Also:
- http://www.twitter.com/shitmydadsays
- http://psychoticlettersfrommen.blogspot.com/
- http://www.canitapthat.com/
- http://www.textsfromlastnight.com/
- http://whywomenhatemen.blogspot.com/
- http://www.fupenguin.com/
Whatever keeps my mind busy these days...
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Hate
We're starting to hate each other.
I am "cold-hearted". I've "never felt a real feeling in [my] life". I'm "living a complete lie".
This is exactly what we didn't want to do. And here we are.
Fuck.
I am "cold-hearted". I've "never felt a real feeling in [my] life". I'm "living a complete lie".
This is exactly what we didn't want to do. And here we are.
Fuck.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Separated
So, I'm separated. That's the big secret. That's what has kept me away.
A big part of me feels like it's the right thing to do. But that doesn't mean that it's not heart-wrenching, stomach-churning, sobfest-inducing.
It's also hard because I feel like everyone wants me to do what they want me to do. I know what my parents want me to do. I know what Hubs wants me to do. I know what the rest of the extended family wants to happen. Like there isn't already a huge weight on my shoulders and a panic attack waiting around every corner.
Fuck this. I hate this.
A big part of me feels like it's the right thing to do. But that doesn't mean that it's not heart-wrenching, stomach-churning, sobfest-inducing.
It's also hard because I feel like everyone wants me to do what they want me to do. I know what my parents want me to do. I know what Hubs wants me to do. I know what the rest of the extended family wants to happen. Like there isn't already a huge weight on my shoulders and a panic attack waiting around every corner.
Fuck this. I hate this.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
.
I don't know what is making me come back to this blog. I haven't been here in a million years.
My shit is falling apart in my personal life. My professional life couldn't be better, but another part of my life is crumbling, and it's too late to stop it.
I'm trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself, and that's become much easier since I found out a friend lost her baby at the 20 week mark of her pregnancy. No matter how shitty things feel for me right now, I know she's feeling worse. And I can't stop it for her either.
I'm really good at wallowing. Not so good at putting on my big girl panties and dealing with life. But I kind of have to... I don't want Bean thinking that the way to deal with sadness and disappointment is to just roll over and die. You know?
My shit is falling apart in my personal life. My professional life couldn't be better, but another part of my life is crumbling, and it's too late to stop it.
I'm trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself, and that's become much easier since I found out a friend lost her baby at the 20 week mark of her pregnancy. No matter how shitty things feel for me right now, I know she's feeling worse. And I can't stop it for her either.
I'm really good at wallowing. Not so good at putting on my big girl panties and dealing with life. But I kind of have to... I don't want Bean thinking that the way to deal with sadness and disappointment is to just roll over and die. You know?
Monday, April 6, 2009
Do you see what I fucking deal with?!?!
E-mail correspondance between a total douchebag, a co-worker (briefly), and me:
From: Doucheface
Sent: Mon 3/30/2009 8:41 AM
To: Chuck
Subject: Renewal
Why has there been no membership renewal sent to me this year via regular mail? T. Doucheface, P.O. Box 666, Hell, Va. 22666. Why is finding an e-mail address to contact Organization almost impossible to locate on the website?
**********
From: Chuck
Sent: Tuesday, March 31, 2009 10:48 PM
To: T. Doucheface
That is a good question Todd. I will forward this to the membership department. For emails, please click on the tab labeled "About Organization" then click on staff. This will give you every email for Organization that you possibly need. Hope this helps.
Chuck
**********
Subject: RE: Renewal
Date: Fri, 3 Apr 2009 16:43:23 -0600
From: Heather
To: T. Doucheface
Mr. Doucheface,
I received your voicemail, and I am not sure why you wouldn't have received your renewal card. I apologize for the inconvenience, and a membership application will be sent out to you first thing Monday morning so that you may renew by check through the mail.
Sincerely,
Heather
**********
From: T Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 4:52 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Ok... This oversight has made my membership become now in an expired status. There is also a sanctioned tournament here this weekend. Not good... I am, Doucheface (I fuck you not, folks, he really signs his emails "I am". You are what? A dick? Yeah, I'm figuring this out.)
**********
From: T Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 4:54 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Have there not been four days between Chuck's message to me and yours this afternoon? Why could that membership renewal card not have been mailed this afternoon? I am, Doucheface (Please notice that all of these emails are in order. Please notice that this Cunthead sent me two emails within 3 minutes of each other. Do people seriously have nothing better to do?)
**********
Subject: RE: Renewal
Date: Fri, 3 Apr 2009 16:59:48
From: Heather
To: T. Doucheface
Mr. Doucheface,
I get approximately 50 emails each day, so sometimes it takes me longer than I would like to respond, and I apologize for the inconvenience.
It can't go out today as the letter carrier has come and gone already. She was here this morning. And I didn't get to your email until this afternoon. However, I have attached a PDF file of our membership application. You may print it out, fill it out, and return it to us at your leisure. This is the only thing I can think of to get your membership in more quickly.
If you would like, you can also sign up at your event for a membership. However, it may take the membership up to 3 weeks to arrive here.
Sincerely,
Heather
**********
From: T. Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 5:26 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Have been a member for over ten years and NEVER pay any money at tournaments! You have me in your data base so what is the problem? Who has dropped the ball on doing renewals yet finds the time to get approval for getting dues increased? No desire to be inconvenienced by printing something out at the library when it should already be in my mail box. When the parent organization does not have a clear contact link cor communication available on their website it appears that there is a real problem occuring at Organization Street. I am, Doucheface (Really, sir? You don't have a printer? Your neighbor doesn't have a printer? Really?)
**********
From: T. Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 5:28 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Glanced at the form you atttached [sic] and it is one for a person who has never been sanctioned before...??!!! I am, Todd (Again, please note that these last two emails were sent 2 minutes apart. And, what the fuck, you fuckface? I am, I am, I am. You are a stupid fuck who wouldn't know customer service if it came up and punched you in the balls!!!!)
**********
From: Heather
Sent: Monday, April 06, 2009 10:01 AM
To: T. Doucheface
Cc: Bossman
Subject: RE: Renewal
T., (No longer address him as "Mr." He doesn't warrant that respect.)
I checked the list of people who had renewal reminders printed for them and sent out. Your record with all mailing information correct was included in that. The error was most certainly not here at our office, but with the postal service. You should have received a card. Once the cards leave the printing house, Organization no longer has any control over them. No one "dropped the ball".
As for not paying any money at tournaments before, no, you probably haven't had to. However, every member does have the option of renewing their membership at any event they attend that is sanctioned with Organization.
As for membership dues increases, several emails were sent out starting in December, allowing members ample time to renew at the old rate before the increase on February 1. Since you don't have an email on file in your membership record, you didn't receive the information. The increase was voted on by the board of directors and not a decision that was made by one person at our office.
Also, the membership application that I sent to you is not only for new members. If you take another look at the form, you'll notice that above the portion where you put your name, there is a spot for your member ID number. Also, on the right hand side, you can check a box that states that you are a returning member.
Obviously, this correspondance isn't helping solve any problems. If you have any further problems, questions, or issues you'd like to discuss, I suggest you talk to J. Bossman, my boss, our Executive Director (bossman's email).
Sincerely,
Heather
*****************************************
Some days, I really question my life's path.
From: Doucheface
Sent: Mon 3/30/2009 8:41 AM
To: Chuck
Subject: Renewal
Why has there been no membership renewal sent to me this year via regular mail? T. Doucheface, P.O. Box 666, Hell, Va. 22666. Why is finding an e-mail address to contact Organization almost impossible to locate on the website?
**********
From: Chuck
Sent: Tuesday, March 31, 2009 10:48 PM
To: T. Doucheface
That is a good question Todd. I will forward this to the membership department. For emails, please click on the tab labeled "About Organization" then click on staff. This will give you every email for Organization that you possibly need. Hope this helps.
Chuck
**********
Subject: RE: Renewal
Date: Fri, 3 Apr 2009 16:43:23 -0600
From: Heather
To: T. Doucheface
Mr. Doucheface,
I received your voicemail, and I am not sure why you wouldn't have received your renewal card. I apologize for the inconvenience, and a membership application will be sent out to you first thing Monday morning so that you may renew by check through the mail.
Sincerely,
Heather
**********
From: T Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 4:52 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Ok... This oversight has made my membership become now in an expired status. There is also a sanctioned tournament here this weekend. Not good... I am, Doucheface (I fuck you not, folks, he really signs his emails "I am". You are what? A dick? Yeah, I'm figuring this out.)
**********
From: T Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 4:54 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Have there not been four days between Chuck's message to me and yours this afternoon? Why could that membership renewal card not have been mailed this afternoon? I am, Doucheface (Please notice that all of these emails are in order. Please notice that this Cunthead sent me two emails within 3 minutes of each other. Do people seriously have nothing better to do?)
**********
Subject: RE: Renewal
Date: Fri, 3 Apr 2009 16:59:48
From: Heather
To: T. Doucheface
Mr. Doucheface,
I get approximately 50 emails each day, so sometimes it takes me longer than I would like to respond, and I apologize for the inconvenience.
It can't go out today as the letter carrier has come and gone already. She was here this morning. And I didn't get to your email until this afternoon. However, I have attached a PDF file of our membership application. You may print it out, fill it out, and return it to us at your leisure. This is the only thing I can think of to get your membership in more quickly.
If you would like, you can also sign up at your event for a membership. However, it may take the membership up to 3 weeks to arrive here.
Sincerely,
Heather
**********
From: T. Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 5:26 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Have been a member for over ten years and NEVER pay any money at tournaments! You have me in your data base so what is the problem? Who has dropped the ball on doing renewals yet finds the time to get approval for getting dues increased? No desire to be inconvenienced by printing something out at the library when it should already be in my mail box. When the parent organization does not have a clear contact link cor communication available on their website it appears that there is a real problem occuring at Organization Street. I am, Doucheface (Really, sir? You don't have a printer? Your neighbor doesn't have a printer? Really?)
**********
From: T. Doucheface
Sent: Friday, April 03, 2009 5:28 PM
To: Heather
Subject: RE: Renewal
Heather, Glanced at the form you atttached [sic] and it is one for a person who has never been sanctioned before...??!!! I am, Todd (Again, please note that these last two emails were sent 2 minutes apart. And, what the fuck, you fuckface? I am, I am, I am. You are a stupid fuck who wouldn't know customer service if it came up and punched you in the balls!!!!)
**********
From: Heather
Sent: Monday, April 06, 2009 10:01 AM
To: T. Doucheface
Cc: Bossman
Subject: RE: Renewal
T., (No longer address him as "Mr." He doesn't warrant that respect.)
I checked the list of people who had renewal reminders printed for them and sent out. Your record with all mailing information correct was included in that. The error was most certainly not here at our office, but with the postal service. You should have received a card. Once the cards leave the printing house, Organization no longer has any control over them. No one "dropped the ball".
As for not paying any money at tournaments before, no, you probably haven't had to. However, every member does have the option of renewing their membership at any event they attend that is sanctioned with Organization.
As for membership dues increases, several emails were sent out starting in December, allowing members ample time to renew at the old rate before the increase on February 1. Since you don't have an email on file in your membership record, you didn't receive the information. The increase was voted on by the board of directors and not a decision that was made by one person at our office.
Also, the membership application that I sent to you is not only for new members. If you take another look at the form, you'll notice that above the portion where you put your name, there is a spot for your member ID number. Also, on the right hand side, you can check a box that states that you are a returning member.
Obviously, this correspondance isn't helping solve any problems. If you have any further problems, questions, or issues you'd like to discuss, I suggest you talk to J. Bossman, my boss, our Executive Director (bossman's email).
Sincerely,
Heather
*****************************************
Some days, I really question my life's path.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
